The question just sat on my heart after Sunday’s message. My honest answer was “no.” The question is so powerful and hits the nail on the head with Jonah and with me. Jonah wasn’t concerned about God’s agenda. What broke Jonah’s heart was a plant dying, not people dying spiritually and physically.
He was more concerned about the death of a plant that he did not tend to, did not water, did not garden and did not make grow. Jonah was concerned because it was hot and the plant provided shade.
What’s the focus of my heart?
As Pastor said, “Don’t be mad that there’s a Jonah in your closet.”
I can say there is a Jonah, or two or three, in my closet because the things that break my heart are the things that affect me.
I am a sinner to the core! I thank God for his grace, mercy and compassion, which are new every morning.
The Bible says, “Because of the Lord’s great love, we are not consumed, for his compassion never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” Every day he gives me a chance to change.
Sunday’s message taught me transformation begins with recognition.
Paul teaches us in the book of Philippians, that he once thought life, and what it afforded him, as a Pharisee, was valuable, later he learned it was worthless, because of what Christ had done for him.
Paul states, “I press on to possess that perfection…No dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead…I press on to reach …the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.”
The prize? To know Christ.
That’s the how, the why, the what and the who.
I’ve got to stop over-valuing my work, my family, my safety and security, my habits, and hidden sins, talking about people who’ve hurt me negatively, or focusing on the next big event, a concert, a movie or a party, etc,.
I have to press toward Christ, the only thing worthy of all my attention.
This is how you know God, to be transformed, to have a heart that breaks for the things of God, like David, Paul, Peter, Joshua and most importantly Jesus.
I know the how, now it’s a matter of do I press through life, to know him?
It boils down to, do I really love him?
I am a writer, a poet. I peruse life like a storybook, a tale, where the ending is unknown but believed to be happily ever after. I am an attorney by trade. I am a singer, poet, and actress by desire and gift. I am a member of City Church of Sacramento and I am growing in grace and repentance. I am a daughter, a sister, an aunt, and friend, all of which I am gratefully budding in.